Fired From Clinic - WOW - That's Gall

I'm never sure how to spell 'gall' but we all know what I mean.

After having Atrial-fib, (the heart chugs away but doesn't process the blood correctly and the blood ends up stayin in a single chamber for too long, cooagulated and thickened, it may and can form tiny to large blockages that if get out of the heart will cause Infarctions, strokes, etc., and if they stay in the heart will bring about heart attack or failure), possibly caused by my doctor lowering my meds, specifically my Xanax which kept my angina and chest pain with my Anxiety Disorder now in it's 7th year treated with Xanax. But, as I was say, the meds were CUT too fast and by too much, which might have played a role in causing the environment for my A-fib to take place, but who knows. It is the lack of MEDICAL reasoning for it being lowered that I don't approve of. First, after a 30 minute psych consult, I was labeled a psych case and told Xanax was not good for me after 7 years based on the fact I had emotional breaakdowns in my late teens. This was over 20 years ago and they felt more relevant apparently the the more recent cardiac arrest and other damage to my heart, myopathy, septal defect in the form of a hole allowing blood, un-oxygenated to flow back into the wrong chamber, and more. And, as if that weren't enough, it just so happened the day I went to see Dr. N on August 11th, 2010, he had been contacted by a Kroger's pharmacist who I hadn't seen in months and apparently there had been a couple scripts filled there for the same drug from another physician. Shocked to hear something that allegedly I did in Feb, April, May. I asked if I could contact the doctor, my PCP told me the doctors name but that we couldn't talk to him as he was deceased. I asked, "I'm getting meds from a dead doctor?". He replied that it was back then. I asked how long the doctor had been dead for, assuming a long time but it was in April, the middle month for which I received said medications even though it is impossible to get the THIRD month covered as when he died, his license goes with him as does any orders including Rx. So how would have I or anyone been allowed that THIRD month if he had died the month prior? No answer from my PCP.

Now instead of this pharmacist contacting ME, the client, they went outside this relationship and went straight to my doctor and my clinic. This allegation without any legal proof turned me from a patient he had helped or attempted to help for 3 years into a drug seeking, drug abuser, psych patient who was undeservin of the benefit of the doubt unless other proof were to arise or other incidents and the psych should have been taken with a grain of salt as it was only a consult and not scripture or definite in any way.

I look back on it and I have no idea what they are talking about nor why it would even be flagged if someone else did it. They say it occurred from Feb to April, then he said Jan to April, still no more than 4 scripts. During this time, there were no scripts filled from the Clinic, so no cross-over. But I still wonder why, after April, then may May, June, July and then I filled 30 pills there of Xanax. To this she went that extra mile to CALL the clinic and report me for something she couldn't be sure of and couldn't verify with the doctor. Further, it was not uncommon for many doctors to refill my Xanax at the clinic so there was always different names of doctors from the clinic so was THIS what peaked her interest? And why no police if i've done this?

I told my doctor before he fired me from the clinic shutting me out of my only care that is keeping me alive with all my ailments proven true and deadly all of them, I told him I should call the police but he told me NOT to do so. I asked why but he didn't answer.

It all seems odd. Also, no question from them but an answer for me as to why I have bills that have nothing to do with me. I didn't know what would be in store for me.

He wrote another script for Xanax and an Antacid. He said he would only give me one month of the NARCOTIC and that should be more than enough time. The doctor he had me to go to I called soon thereafter and it would be more than 2 months for a new patient to be seen. So, I guess I suffer for 1 or more months depending on when I can get in. How do I know this, because I am editing this in November now and I have been left without and have suffered terribly waiting to see a new doctor only to find I cannot afford him and the appt was screwed up and I would have to wait until January next year. And my doctor was DEAD sure that I would get in in a month so much so he denied any and all request for refills of the Xanax which has caused much pain and my heart has been electrified, I cannot sleep, I feel like I'm crazed at times. My stress keeps me from functionin and my family suffers as I do or worse. And meanwhile, those doctors at the clinic sit in judgement over me and don't even ween me from the drug so dangerous to ceaase cold turkey with a heart condition. They don't care at all and I will venture to say it is repayment for me complaining about my cardioligist medically raping me and causing damage to my groin error during a cath procedure in which he didn't follow anesthesia protocols and I suffered phsyically and mentally. When I complained, they started to pick at me with their orders and such where for 3 years they did nothing of the sort but saw to my needs as they arose or were created or discovered.

Meanwhile, I also wonder what they've written all over my records.

It was also reported to me that out of the blue that the hospital after I told all my clinic doctors the truth, and all the other hospitals the truth about where i get my off label used meds and marijuana usage, etc. And yet, they believe it when the hspitalist told them I told them the clinic prescribed it. This didn't change anything when I told the truth about getting myself for free and not off street to every other hospital and doctor. It just doesn't make sense but I'll give this doctor a piece of my mind especially since she gave said info AFTER I had complained about her my last stay there.

I always talk about suing doctors and hospitals but I think I've finally got enough on the plate to actually go after some people for making my heart and my condition worse. I am disgusted with 98% of them and I don't find them smart at all. They cannot even prescribe medications correctly and trying to correct an error takes forever and you get to suffer while they figure out the difference or the change that is needed. The only people on the whole who seem to be okay at their jobs and interested are nurses in general and some of the techs. Other techs like radio techs and such are just barely there, listening to ipods and eating while you twirl around and bang away in an MRI, etc.

So, now I am on my own again but I am ready to file something against this hospital in Cincinnati that starts with a J. Not a hard choice to figure out.

I did all I could and if I had the proper meds that I've asked for I could do the rehab needed and actually live a normal life again to a degree but doctors don't want you to feel TOO good unless you are drunk or something or having an operation.

They control drugs and our pain levels far too much from a position of power than protocol. I say, if I'm moving all around and jerking during a procedure, perhaps I'm not medicated enough and especially when they are doing a cardiac catheter you would think they would keep me down so I didn't move too much causing them to hit a wall and throwing me into cardiac arrest, etc.

Oh well, we will see what happens and I will try to let you know. If I get a lot of money I will be back soon with plenty of time and money to yack online. If NOT, then, I will be going to appointment after another trying to make things work out for help that I need so badly.

Take care all and watch your doctors, question the meds with your pharmacist against other meds and vitamins you take or history you have or health conditions, etc. and they are always smarter than the doctors and may save your life. Last look it up online and find out what it does and isn't supposed to do.
So Mote It Be

A-Fib Fun & The Man Who Sued the World

Unbelievable! Everytime my cardiologist tells me I'm fine and they treat me like an irrelevant patient with no REAL issues, something dangerous and life threatening happens.

You know, I thought I was getting tired of doctors who know nothing and pretend to know everything about me, my conditions, my habits, what is right and wrong and what helps and hurts me, and then they hit newer, lower levels that leave me man who again wants to SUE THE WORLD!!

I thought that my heart was in crisis all along and I kept telling them the angina was real and only abated by use of opiates, especially morphine but can be tempered to a degree with other opiods. Also, Xanax works great. I read a recent medical article from Cambridge, I believe, which talked about a study where patients were given up to 9 and 10 mgs of Xanax a day before they reached a level where there was any efficacy at all.
The patients were still able to function and had finally reached a level where the drug worked.

Most patients were around the 4 to 5 mgs per day area and it seems the standard dosage given tends to top out around 4 mgs, even if 5 mgs is better, doctors in most will never give more than 4 mgs daily regardless of need or ability to increase health. Then again, I've met people who were given 6 to 8 2mg Xanax tabs daily. This is up there and yet, HOW DID HE GET THEM?

I suffer from anxiety and panic disorder causing terrible attacks on a daily basis sometimes great than others, meanwhile, I also experience painful angina from a heart condition and possible other issues as yet unknown to the professionals caring for me. This is completely overlooked because 22 years ago, I was called Bipolar II and hospitalized. Since that happened, I have been labeled a drug seeker and after 8 years of Xanax to help my condition, they've decided to END my use of this medicine with nothing in it's place which means a wall of pain and fear that would cripple Stalin.

Do no harm is number one on their oath, and apparently number one in their fear and the ability to choose pain over relief if it so pleases them to do so or they as I said, fear reprisal of some kind. No changes were even considered until I was analyzed by a psychopharmacologist. Now, after her 'scathing' report, given to me by staff directly, they are shuffling like nuns in a cucumber patch. I was instantly decreased to 2 a day and have even been short dosed to be sure I don't get any Xanax. I was even shorted by a few days prior to my appointment date so I will have nothing for 3 days prior to the visit which may be impossible for me to attend.

I informed them of my a-fib even and still they didn't budge in their decision. 2 a day, no more. If you ask me, I should be taking around 6 mgs a day. 2mgs as needed for each event in a day if I feel needed. The stoppage and decrease of this drug in specific, I even warned them via recorded voice mail that will be documented, that it could cause arrhytmia and many other problems, still no respite.

I will be seeing this doctor who did all of this without even calling me and didn't mention anything like it in our last visit and the whole matter was to be revisited 4 months from that date which is coming up. And yet, his cowardice kept him from speaking directly to me.

We will see how things go and if another rhythm issue happens, I guess I won't worry about money for a while because I will sue these jerks for treating me without regard because they're afraid I might be enjoying the medication over the line of needing it.

I will let you know how it goes after seeing him and letting him know how I feel. If he doesn't change my meds back up to 3 and 4 if I have my way of Xanax, I will be pursuing actions against them allowing me to suffer for over 2 years in pain and anxiety.

The Patient without Patience